'yea, shoot'

'Hey, u gotta promise that u answer truthfully on that!...er......am i balding?'

'Huh?! You gotta be kiddin, of cuz not!!'

In fact this topic rose twice in a week when i was with 2 different group of friends. For a moment, i was daunted upon being asked the question. What has become of our generation? Since when have our topics shifted from sucky lecturers, lousy notes, stressful tutorial, prince charming, gorgeous princess, fanciful dreams to reality? Have we already fallen into the fallacy of adulthood? Guys start to worry about establishing their career, when to get a wife, investment, status, balding, tummy, .....etc; Girls start to worry about more wrinkles, aging, bfs, husbands, marriage, jewellery....etc.

It's a sign of age, i believe. Suddenly we realised what we used to talk about seemed to have taken a toll of change; the things that we worry about seemed to have increased; what we used to take for granted for suddenly became a concern and the worries that we used to have came true. All of a sudden, it's as if we'd entered the dreary cycle which we never expected ourselves to fall into any moment soon. So abrupt that it just took us offguard. What's with this social clock anyway? This social norm which people use to gauge the time when we SHOULD graduate, when we should look for a job, when we should get married, when we should get attached, when we should do this, when we should do that....etc.....social obligations. Why should we answer to that anyway?Why can't we break away from it anyway?

I feel as if i'd reached another crossroad in my life. Well, i haven't exactly reached the point where the road splits. So i have no idea how many paths or alternatives that lie ahead. But i can already sense the urgency to decide, the urgency to arm myself with as much as i possibly could. Should i pick this up, should i pick that up. The obstacles that awaits me along the path i choose, i can't foresee, but i know if i only decide when i reach that point, it'll be too late to turn back. Not like i have a choice. I can imagine myself turning back to see a swarm of people running into my direction. Major stampede. I'll be overwhelmed by them.

In the 1st place, what kind of path would i wanna travel on? Which one of the path will perhaps lead me to my dreams? which one of the path do i wanna walk on for the rest of my life?

As i inch closer to the point, my pace slowers down. I think i'm lost for the moment. I'm thinking.....reflecting on myself......evaluating and reaffirming my interests, my directions along the way. Hopefully by the time i reach the point, i'll know.